Signs the World is coming to and End

There’s no other explanation for the events that have unfolded than the earth as we know it will cease to exist, just like “they” predicated.


Now I know what you are thinking. That can’t possibly be true. But it is. And here’s what happened.

Most of you know by now that the US Department of Health and Human Services has mandated that Catholic institutions that employ non-Catholics must provide a health care plan that includes birth control coverage. Now, think about that. HHS is not saying that Catholic hospitals have to dole out birth control, and they certainly aren’t saying that Catholic institutions have to PERFORM ABORTIONS. Although if you listen to the right wing media, this is the spin they have put on it. What HHS said was that they must provide for birth control benefits in the insurance plan that they provide to their employees. And if by chance the Catholic institution is self-insured, they have the opportunity to arrange for birth control coverage FROM A THIRD PARTY. All HHS is saying is that under the law, everyone is equal. Just because birth control is a coverage offered in the health care plan doesn’t mean Catholics are forced to use it. But I can guarantee you that most Catholics would use birth control.

When it comes to Catholic Hospitals and Universities, the majority of the EMPLOYEES are most likely not Catholic. We’re not talking about the executives of such who probably are. We’re talking about regular people who applied for and got regular jobs that happen to be at a place of business operated by the Catholic Church. So not only are these non-Catholics not obligated to follow Catholic doctrine, even Catholics aren’t obligated to follow Catholic doctrine. It’s a well-known fact the most Catholics do not follow the churches teaching on contraception. Mika Brzezinski being one of them.

While Joe Scarborough and his republican cronies have tried to turn this into a first amendment issue (Freedom of Religion) and they are saying that Barack Obama is blurring the lines between church and state, AND he is trouncing on the rights of Catholics, the argument has also been expanded now to include abortion and the whole “slippery slope” bullshit. Anything to distract people from the real issue. And here’s the real issue:

The Catholic Church doesn’t want anyone to know that the majority of their own “flock” does NOT follow the birth control doctrine. All that’s happened is that the White House, by trying to provide equality under its health care rules, has exposed this dirty little secret. Catholics use birth control. The Pope doesn’t have as much control over his minions as he’s like everyone to believe. Nowhere in the Bible did Jesus say, don’t use birth control. And the Old Testament doesn’t talk about it either. Birth Control doctrine is a man-made doctrine.

Is there any difference between using a condom, or a birth control pill, and having a Man simply pull out before he ejaculates? Is pulling out before ejaculation a form of contraception? Of course it is. So birth control isn’t something that Rome is against, obviously. But they are if birth control involves a gizmo or pill, and it’s made public knowledge that Catholics use it. The Catholic Church is hypocritical on so many issues, but especially on this one. Why do they allow any man and woman to get married if they don’t plan on having children (“Be fruitful and multiply”)?

Now as far as Mika Brzezinski is concerned, she is a Catholic. I am a recovering Catholic (one day at a time, fingers crossed). She stated this morning that she believes that this issue is about Health Insurance Coverage and is not a cultural or religious issue. She also said that she believes in contraception, as do most Catholics. I agree with Mi……

I can’t even type it. I’ll try again. I agree with Mika Brz……. Nope, couldn’t do it. One more time. Deep Breath, Heavy Sigh.

I agree with Mika Brzezinski. THERE. I said it. She actually gave this some thought. She also talked to the White House, as a reporter, to get their statement on what was intended by this recent decision. She is not pro-choice and she knows that this is not about abortion. This whole argument is about two things. First, the right wingers want any chance they can to distort the facts and claim that President Obama is forcing Catholic Hospitals to provide abortions. Second, the Catholic Church doesn’t want the laid back approach that most Catholics have to contraception to be well-known. It diminishes the churches power, and exposes their lack of it.

Joe Scarborough and speaker of the house, John Boehner (get real, it’s pronounced BONER, NOT BAYNOR), need to check the right wing conspiracy shit at the door. The saddest part of all of this is that most American’s will only hear the filtered media frenzy of the right wingers and never do their own research to figure out what is really going on. The truth, I mean.

So today is the day I agreed with Mika Brzezinski. I will be watching the skies for meteors, comets, and asteroids.


Maine gets Gay Marriage just right

When I listened to Governor John Baldacci of Maine give his speech following his signing of the of the Gay Marriage Bill  just a few short hours after receiving the bill, all I could think of was “He got it right”.

I watched and listened to what he said, not as a gay man,  but as a citizen of Maine, and the United States.  Even though I am gay I have not always agreed with the arguments FOR or AGAINST gay marriage. 

It wasn’t until I heard the Governor explain that the new law is about affording equal rights to all Maine citizens as outlined in Maine’s Constitution that it all made sense to me.  The Constitution’s first Article states “All people are born equally free and independent, and have certain natural, inherent and unalienable rights, among which are those of enjoying and defending life and liberty, acquiring, possessing and protecting property, and of pursuing and obtaining safety and happiness.”

Baldacci used this first and most important Article to first understand for himself that allowing Gay Marriage in Maine is not about granting the same rights to gay people that are affording to heterosexual people.  He said we are all equal and all deserve the same rights and when he looked at the issue from that perspective, he could not come up with any reasons not to allow Gay Marriage.

 He went on further to say that that no religion will be required to conduct same-sex marriages, or even recognize same-sex marriages within the realm of their own belief system because Maine has strict policies about the division of church and State.  And Maine whole-heartedly abides by the Church/State tenet.

These are ideas that I had never heard anyone express in this specific manner before; the idea that the State will allow gay civil marriages but it won’t force any church to recognize them.  So if, for example, the Catholic Church doesn’t want to recognize gay marriage because it goes against their belief system, they don’t have to.  But the Catholic Church can’t tell a gay couple what civil rights they can or cannot have.  The same applies to any other religion.  On the flip side, a gay couple cannot force a religious organization to perform or recognize their marriage and cannot claim discrimination if that church will not recognize their marriage or perform their marriage ceremony.  Under these circumstances, anybody against same-sex marriage CAN hide behind their religion, and take comfort there.  But they can not deny rights to others.

I believe that this is as close as anybody is going to get to writing a law that makes sense when defining gay marriage.  It covers all the bases.  Nobody is forcing anyone to “believe” in anything and those who call themselves “believers” can’t squelch equality and civil rights by hiding behind their religion.  So, like the U.S. Constitution has done so many times, it was Maine’s constitution that acted as the final document to guide us through this divisive issue. 

Governor Baldacci was never comfortable with the gay marriage issue.  But, he found it in himself to understand that legislators, or politicians if you wish, need to take a stand and can not continually defer to public opinion.  All of the far lefties, and far righties have had more than enough time to express their viewpoints on this issue, and they have.  Neither is a shy group. 

The Governor said that he realizes this will not be the last word on the issue.  In my opinion, it should be, but it won’t be.  Instead of worrying about real problems, the whack jobs are going to come crawling out of the woodwork.  

The Maine Legislature and the Governor have laid down the gauntlet.  There are no “reasonable” arguments against this law as it was written.  First, anybody who protests this law must first say to themselves, and then the public, “I intend to take away the civil rights of others”.   Secondly, anybody who intends to use the Bible or their religion as an argument can stop right there.  The law clearly states that you don’t have to religiously recognize gay marriage or perform gay marriage if you don’t want to.  So what’s left?

Well, there’s the “I simply think it is wrong” argument.   Hmmm?  Are they also against heterosexual couples who get married and never intend to have children, or those who get married for convenience, or those who get married to obtain property, money, or social status (you know, the reason marriage was invented in the first place).  What one “thinks” or “believes” is wrong is immaterial.  Because under the Constitution of the State of Maine, all citizens have equal rights and included in that is their right to marry whom they choose as long as it is not breaking any other laws (like the minimum age for marriage or harm to animals). 

There is only one argument against Maine’s Gay Marriage law and it’s a faux-argument called “hate, fear, and ignorance” none of which are viable arguments against ANY law.  Unfortunately, that doesn’t mean some people in Maine won’t mind standing up and saying “I hate, I fear, and I am ignorant” to try and get their way.

All Christmas Shoppers have Blood on their hands

You’ve heard the stories.  Three people were actually trampled to death, killed, murdered in the doorway of a mall or big box store on Black Friday.  One pregnant woman made it out alive but when all was said and done, she could not say the same for her yet unborn child. 

I know you saw this on this news.  I am sure you watched in horror as it was read to you while the video of throngs of manic Christmas shoppers played in the background.

As far as I’m concerned – each and every one of you “Christmas Shoppers” is responsible for these deaths.  Do you think that because it didn’t happen where you were shopping, or in the crowd in which you stood, that you are innocent.  You are not. 

You have all fed the fires of Christmas shopping hell by demanding and participating in Black Friday “deals”.  These so called deals, in many cases, have been marked up, only to be marked back down to something reasonable, all in the name of Christmas; all in the name of squealing, stampeding shoppers who did everything from punch each other out, to actually shoot each other with handguns, inside a store, to get a DVD player. 

Store clerks were mowed down while trying to help customers escape the melee. 

It is my opinion that you should all be ashamed of yourselves for allowing these things to happen.  None of you deserve a happy Christmas.  You have turned this sacred holiday into a pagan ritual fueled by greed, and guilt, and gluttony and I find it disgusting, immoral, and unforgivable.

Christmas is a holiday (once pronounced “holy day”) to celebrate the birth of the Messiah, a Christian being who is believed to have come to save the world from its own sins.  If you are not celebrating that specific idea, then why the hell are you at Best Buy, elbowing strangers to get a flat screen TV.

You were born and raised in the most greedy, self-centered period in American history.  And because you didn’t get what you wanted for Christmas when you were six years old, you are now trying to make up for it by piling on the presents to your own children.  You are perpetuating the myth that Santa Claus exists and that more presents equals more love.

It’s time to GET A GRIP.  When is it enough?  When people are dying because of this ridiculousness?  Well, now they are dying.  But are you ready yet to give up this nonsense and give to each other what really matters:  human kindness, affection, your time, and gestures of real love that don’t involve price tags.

What really gets to me is the Pro life crowd who wants to protect the lives of the unborn, all in the name of God.  But when a woman loses her child as she is trampled by Christmas shoppers, these same people are too busy to notice or care, and are fighting over the newest and coolest cell phone to give their twelve year old for Christmas.

How about this year for Christmas, instead of watching the news with feigned horror that someone died being trampled at a shopping mall, you go somewhere to simply help someone else pick themselves up instead of pushing them out of the way.  That, my friends, is a real Christmas gift.

California Proposition 8 – the “anti-love” law

Whenever somebody sits down to write a law, or propose an amendment, or legislate anything at all,  the first thing he or she should do is put away the Bible, the Koran, the Torah, “Dianetics” by L. Ron Hubbard, or any other book that skews basic human rights based on somebody elses interpretation.  The reason is that in this country, America, we have what is called a separation of church and state as outlined in the U.S. Constitution.  And religious arguments against same-sex marriages just don’t hold any ground if you consider conflicting scriptural passages like “do unto others as you would have them do unto you”.  But nobody can explain it with the passion and fervor that Keith Olbermann did on last night’s “Countdown” through a Special Comment.

Known for his “Special Comments”, Olbermann put into words the things many of us think about but can’t seem to verbalize or put into cohesive buckets.  Olbermann, last night, was at his best explaining why nobody should be denied the legal right to love another person and cement that love through marriage.  I watched the video below live, as it happened, and could not hold back the tears.  This from a man who is not gay, comes from the sports broadcasting world, and said he struggled to find someone in his own extended family who was gay for whom he could speak.  He could not find one but that did not temper his firey and poignant diatribe that, in my opinion, everyone should hear before they pass judgement on gay marriage or any other kind of discrimination.

Christian Fundamentalists can go to hell

Since I am not a believer that God created the world in 6 real time days about 6000 years ago, and I don’t believe that dinosaurs and humans roamed this planet at the same time, I can tell Christian Fundamentalists to go to hell and it doesn’t mean anything to me because I don’t believe in Hell either.  Unless you want to count the daily life that some are forced to endure as a living hell, then yes I believe that.

When I hear a 10 year old girl, shown on the evening news, say that there is no such thing as evolution or some “big bang asteroid theory” (which she says as she floats fake quotations signs in the air) I want to first slap her parents, then slap the minister or pastor of her church, and then slap the shit out of her.  If that makes me evil, or the devil, or whatever “they” want to call it, then so be it.  I didn’t say I was going to do it, it’s just what I think about.  Just slap ’em!  Even they can’t say it’s  sin to consider something.

How is it that creationists are so narrow minded in their beliefs that they can’t account for contradictions between creationism and evolution that can be proved in a third grade science project, and don’t care that they can’t. 

Hey, if you want to believe in God and that God created the heavens and the earth, I have absolutely no problem with that.  But don’t go around trying to debunk what scientists proved, or disproved, years ago just because your translation of the bible says something different.  Is blind faith in falsehoods going to get you through your daily life?  I guess so.  And there is no wonder why these are the same people who voted for George W. Bush, TWICE no less.  I assume they just wanted to carry on the tradition of standing firmly behind someone, or something, that is an absolute lie, but it is exactly what they wanted to hear.

Barack Obama and his Church

I was raised Catholic and was forced to go to church until I was about 16 years old.  As a young gay man, it was very, very difficult to go to church when I not only didn’t agree with the churches teachings about homosexuality, but also the churches views and guilt-based, repentance structure.

I was also raised a Democrat, sort of.  My father was a democrat and my mom was more independent.  As an adult, I found my own way in terms of politics, but to this day, have not found any one politician, Democrat or otherwise, that I agree with 100% of the time.

I am an American and America has a President named George Bush.   I have travelled outside of the U.S. since he has become President.  In terms of my beliefs and my politics, he certainly does not represent me.  And while I would stand by and defend my Country and what the United States of America stands for, I can’t necessarily defend the things that the Bush Administration says or does.

So Barack Obama goes to a church.  The leader of that church could be considered somewhat radical in what he has said.  That does not mean that Barack Obama agrees with everything that his pastor has said.

That is the end of this story.  Has the media gone on covert operations to uncover the teachings of the churches of Hillary Clinton or John McCain.  I don’t think so.  And honestly, I don’t see any reason to.

So we all have our beliefs.  We align ourselves with those that MOST closely represent our views and beliefs, but that doesn’t mean that any one person speaks on our behalf as a human being.  I have my own convictions and there is no preacher or politician that I would allow to speak on my behalf.

Once again, can we get back to the issues of today?  The dollar is becoming worthless, gas will be over $4.00 a gallon pretty soon, and nobody is watching George Bush who is becoming a loose cannon in the last days of his presidency.  I don’t really care what Barack Obama’s retired pastor said because in the end, we are not our pastors or political leaders, we are ourselves.  Trust what I tell you when I tell you what I think.  I will trust Barack Obama to tell me what he thinks regardless of what his pastor said.

The real issues in the 2008 presidential election.

Sometimes I sit here and think “do people even know HOW to vote?”  I don’t mean do they know how to pull the lever, I mean do they know HOW to decide for whom to cast their vote.

What are the real issues that affect us every day of our lives?  What are the issues that make a real difference in the way we live our lives?

Is it being a Republican or Democrat?  No.  The party with which I think I identify myself or the party the President belongs to has no affect on my daily life. And you?

Is it abortion?  No, I don’t know one person right now struggling with that issue and even if I did, it would not affect MY LIFE.  Abortion is a difficult decision no matter the circumstance.  I hope that people struggling with that decision make whatever choice is right for them.  But you will not convince me that ANYONE in this country has to struggle with abortion on a massive scale every day of their lives. That’s not the issue.  It has no affect on my daily life; and you?

Is it religion?  Who you pray to, or whether or not you choose to pray at all, as no affect on MY LIFE whatsoever.  And you?

Is it terrorism?  Some might think it is but we don’t get attacked every day, I don’t think about it every day, and quite frankly there are things that I worry about every day that in the big scheme of things are small compared to terrorism, but my comparatively small issues are what keep me up at night, not whether or not we have incoming missiles.  And you?

So what are the issues that are common to all of us.  Well how about these?

How am I going to afford to put gas in my car and groceries on the table?  How will I afford to send my children to college.  Are my children getting involved in drugs.  Are my friends and family healthy, depressed, happy?  What happens if I lose my job?  What do I do now that I have lost my job?  Why is it that everyone I know is financially struggling whether or not they even have a job?  If I own my business, how can I be more successful?  How can I provide for myself and my employees? I want to wake up and feel proud to be living in this day.  I want to be proud to be an American.  I want to help other people and give back to the community because no matter how bad I think things are, I am blessed and have gifts that should be shared with others.  These are the things that unite us as human beings.  These are the things I worry about. And you?

So I can only hope that when it comes time to make decisions about who should lead this country, that we give pause and think about what really matters and who will inspire us, help us, lead us, and unite us in the things that are common to all of us.  I am so tired of talking about, and hearing about, our differences.  What I want is a leader who is a real person, flawed like all of us are flawed, and some one who worries about how we Americans will put food on the table and gas in the car.  A leader who worries about my job and what happens if I lose my job.  A leader who will restore America’s name around the world as a nation of generosity and hope. 

There are things in hindsight that we know haven’t worked.  Trickle-down economics for example.  I don’t want to go back to the Reagan years, I don’t want to go back to the Clinton years, and I certainly don’t want to maintain the Bush years.  I want to go forward with the new American years.  The years where America restored its sense of decency, restored its sense of pride, and restored the opportunity for each and every American to live a happy and healthy life.

Christmas Eve 2007

I hope I can look back on this post in a month, or at most a year, and be thankful that as bad as things were, things change and I can persevere.

These are the darkest days of my life.  Since I started working part time at age 16 and then started my career mostly in office settings after that, I have never gone a week without a paycheck, without an income.  As a single man with no children who rents an apartments, I tried to add up all of the money I have paid in taxes, with no write-offs, over the years.  It became overwhelmingly impossible to calculate.  But I know it is in the hundreds of thousands of dollars.  Due to circumstances this year I lost my job, collected unemployment until that ran out and now have no income.  I had to apply for general assistance from the town to help me with rent, I got food stamps, and because I have no health care, I have now applied for help with that as well.  I never expected a hand out in my whole life, but, well, there it is.  You do what you have to do to survive.  What happened to all the money I paid into the system and why isn’t it available to me now that I really need it.

Surviving.  That is all I am doing right now.  I am not living.  Christmas Eve is here and that usually brings me some sense of inner peace on a spiritual level.  I don’t care about presents.  I don’t give or receive them.  I just don’t believe in that.  Christmas, to me, is a celebration of life, and the birth of a Messiah for the Christians.  To me, if you don’t celebrate that, you have no business celebrating Christmas.  The holiday has lost so much meaning.  And today, I am too empty to accept into my heart, the spirit that Christmas usually brings to me.  I am sad and empty and I don’t feel strong enough to be around people, even the ones whom I know love me, and fake being cheerful.  I wear my heart of my sleeve, that’s just me.  So I don’t want to be around people.  They deserve to enjoy their Christmas spirit with their friends and family without someone like me around to bring them down.  My family does do presents, but luckily they don’t put too much emphasis on it anymore.  That brings me some sense of accomplishment because I have had this conversation from time to time with some of them.  And I hope that I have contributed to them re-thinking Christmas; all the presents, all the excessive amount of presents and the excessive dollars spent on them.  I hope they have started to understand that Christmas is about so much more than that.

So my Christmas wish this year is so simple.  I wish to survive it.  I know that by Wednesday, December 26, 2007, none of it will matter anymore.  Most people won’t remember what they got for gifts, or who gave it to them and in many cases the Christmas tree will be down before the day is out.  Then it’s on to New Years Eve and for me the reminder that I am alone, still, and again.

This is a maudlin, melodramatic post but I need to get my feelings out and writing seems to be the only way I can do that.  I know there are those that will understand how I feel and some will not understand what I have to say.  For those who understand, please know that you are not alone in how you feel and maybe in some way that unites us.  For those who disagree, I am truly happy that you are happy and can enjoy your Christmas times with those that you love.  I hope you feel a sense of peace and love around you.  I, too, hope to feel that way again.

Star Parker on “The View”

I wrote a blog entry regarding Star Parker’s appearance on “The View” on June 19, 2007; that’s almost 4 month’s ago.  I usually check the stats for my web site on a semi-regular basis.  On the stat page, I can see how many visitors I got, as well as things like what search words were used on various Internet search engines that helped users find my site.

I keep seeing the words “Star Parker on The View” as search criteria even after 4 months from her appearance and my not-so-flattering article about that appearance.  I’m starting to think that the Star Parker’s camp (or maybe Star herself) is intentionally doing searches for her so that she shows up on some list of “most searched items” on the Internet. 

I’m guessing that somehow this will help her ego and maybe her pocketbook (not sure).  If it does help her pocketbook, it should help her bank roll her drug addition the next time it pops up (and she drops her bible in a puddle in an alleyway somewhere).  I really can’t think of any other reason.