In looking back at the posts I have written over the past 2 years, the first thing that comes to mind is that I can’t believe it’s been 2 years. When I look at the titles and subjects I see a lot of anger. There have been a lot of people I’ve been mad at over the past 2 years. I think that finally I’m at a place where either I’ve matured enough not to get angry, or I’m too tired to get angry. I”m not sure which, yet.
All through the 2008 Presidential campaign I had a lot to say — mostly about right wing republicans with their head up their collective asses. But I also wrote about family, pop culture, entertainment, baseball and just plain human interest stories.
The second thing I think about is how different my life is today from what it was when I started this blog. I had just been fired from my job, and didn’t know why. Finding a new job seemed impossible. I’m not a writer by trade, as you can tell, but I do have other marketable skills; at least I thought I did. After 18 long, no, very long months of confidence-crushing job searching with nothing to show for it, I had a lot of time to build up my anger and needed an outlet. So I took to blogging. I had way too much time on my hands.
I had no idea what I was doing when I started blogging, still don’t. I receive a lot of hateful comments from people who troll the internet looking for someone to hate. I call these people “republicans”. I receive a lot of “hate” comments from people who so afraid of liberal ideas, that they would do, and say, anything based in that fear, in order to squash progessivec ideas. And I received a lot of “support posts” from people who seek out opinions of others with whom they can agree.
I don’t believe for one minute that my writing, or anybody else’s writing, can actually change a readers opinion. Let’s face it. It takes years for us, as human beings, to change; change out minds, change our tune, change our outlook, change our opinion, change our politics, etc. Even if we want to change it doesn’t happen overnight. So for those of us who don’t even want to change, or don’t think we need to change, reading blog opinion pieces will only inspire the co-conspirators, or anger the detractors. There’s just not a lot of “re-thinking” going on.
I’ve done my share of reading both mainstream blogs, and personal blogs like mine. I don’t find there to be much difference between the two. It’s all just personal opinion, some with agendas, some with butterflies & unicorns. None if it really matters.
Here are just a few of the things I learned in the last two years. Some of it I learned about myself, some of it about others:
I hate people who say “at the end of the day”. It is the most overused, and least meaningful expression in generations. It is verbal filler, not unlike most of what today’s talkers have to say. Whether it be a blog or a cable news pundit, it’s all just verbal filler. What are all these political talk shows but blogs on TV. It’s white noise that in a week, or a few days, you won’t remember. And that’s the real problem. None of it is memorable.
People who don’t like what you have to say will call you every name in the book. They will write a degrading comment on your blog telling me to stop degrading people. I don’t get it. And they don’t understand “hypocrisy”.